Title: I’ll Be Waiting
Author: Kelley Armstong
Publisher: St. Martin’s Press
Publication date: October 1, 2024
Length: 336 pages
Genre: Horror
Source: Review copy courtesy of the publisher via NetGalley
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From New York Times Bestselling author Kelley Armstrong comes a spellbinding new tale of supernatural horror involving a haunted-house, seances, lost loved ones, and a sinister spirit out for blood…

Nicola Laughton never expected to see adulthood, being diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis as a child. Then medical advances let her live into her thirties and she met Anton, who taught her to dream of a future… together. Months after they married, Anton died in a horrible car accident, but lived long enough to utter five words to her, “I’ll be waiting for you.”

That final private moment became public when someone from the crash scene took it to the press—the terminally ill woman holding her dying husband as he promised to wait for her on the other side. Worse, that person claimed it wasn’t Anton who said the words but his ghost, hovering over his body.

Since their story went public, Nicola has been hounded by spiritualists promising closure. In the hopes of stopping her downward spiral, friends and family find a reputable medium—a professor of parapsychology. For the séance, they rent the Lake Erie beach house that Anton’s family once owned.

The medium barely has time to begin his work before things start happening. Locked doors mysteriously open. Clouds of insects engulf the house. Nicola hears footsteps and voices and the creak of an old dumbwaiter…in an empty shaft. Throughout it all she’s haunted by nightmares of her past. Because, unbeknownst to the others, this isn’t her first time contacting the dead. And Nicola isn’t her real name.

That’s when she finds the first body….

In this atmospheric, thrilling new ghost story, Kelley Armstrong’s full talents are on display to thrill, chill and leave the reader guessing how Nicola escapes with her life–if she can.

Kelley Armstrong has quickly become a favorite author over the past few years, thanks to terrific series such as A Rip Through Time and A Stitch in Time. I also loved her first foray into contemporary romance, Finding Mr. Write. So it’s no surprise that I’ll Be Waiting, a stand-alone horror novel, pulled me in right from the start and never let me go.

The synopsis above says a lot — perhaps too much — about the plot of I’ll Be Waiting, so I’ll stick to a brief rehash. The basics: Main character Nicola (“Nic”) spends all her life knowing she’s on borrowed time. She’s already exceeded the life expectancy for someone with CF (cystic fibrosis). As the book opens, she’s happily married to a lovely man, Anton, and they’re bantering about future travel plans when a random car accident kills him — but not before he shares last words with Nic: I’ll be waiting for you.

Flashforward eight months, and Nic is still mired in grief, which she lives through by seeking medium after medium, hoping for one final connection with Anton. She knows most are frauds, and knows she should let this obsession go, but she can’t. Worried friends and family stage an intervention of sorts: They’ve found a parapsychologist who applies a scientific approach to contacting the other side, and they want Nicola to agree to make this attempt to reach Anton her last, no matter the outcome.

Everyone knew I loved Anton. They just didn’t know how much. I want the same for my grief. They can know I’m still hurting… just not how much.

As a small group gathers at a lakeside house for the seance, unexplained noises and phenomena begin to occur. Is it yet more fakery? Could it really be Anton? Or is it something or someone else from the other side, with a much darker agenda?

I’ll Be Waiting explores the power of love and grief through Nicola’s experiences. She’s a fascinating main character, living with a chronic illness and suffering through the media interest Anton’s death has provoked. (She’s often described in the press as a terminally ill widow, which is offensive to Nic on so many levels). Through Nic, we get a portrayal of what daily life with CF is like, but also get inside her head to know how thoughts and expectations of death have always been a part of her life. Part of why she can’t let go of the attempts to reach Anton is the very fact that he died first: it was always supposed to be her.

As Nicola spends time at the lake house and experiences unexplained noises, pushes from unseen hands, and other strange occurrences, she also spends more and more time with vivid dreams from her own past. As a teen, something awful happened — awful enough that her parents abruptly moved her across the country and allowed her to change her name in order to escape it all. Now, memories of that time are coming fast and furious, and Nic is left to try to connect the pieces between those events and her possible visitations from Anton.

The suspense builds, with twists and turns that are hinted at, then land with huge, shocking impact. Sure, the first creaking floorboards would probably have sent me running for the hills, but Nic is a woman with a mission, and she refuses to be scared off until she sees this seance through. The tension in the house ratchets higher and higher, as Nicola is forced to question everything — the spirit (spirits?) who seem to be making their presence known, as well as the trustworthiness of the people she’s counting on to see her through this experience.

Somewhere around the 50% point, I sat down with I’ll Be Waiting to read a few more chapters… and didn’t move again until I’d finished. It’s no exaggeration to say this book is impossible to put down. The ghost story and suspense elements are absolutely gripping, but the book is so much more than a horror story. It’s Nicola’s inner life — her memories of her great love and her unending suffering through her grief and loss — that make this book so compelling and so powerful.

I’ll Be Waiting is both beautiful and completely chilling. There are some major jump-scare horror moments, but it’s the story of Nicola and Anton that I think will truly stay with me. This book is masterful storytelling with heart and strong emotional impact. Highly recommended.